[It's still strange to see him smile. Back then, she never noted the lack of them. She was selfish as a girl when they first met and even now, she is still somewhat selfish. Blinded by her own guilt, blinded by her own rage, she never took a minute to recognize Haji's own pain.
Saya doesn't even fully recognize it now, though she can comprehend it better than she did before. Now that she had time to think of things other than Diva and Chiropterans.
She accepts the embrace not so she can cry against him but just so she can embrace him, her hold tight as she presses her forehead against his chest. It's still seeking comfort but instead of the comfort of mere presence, it's the comfort of it actually. It really was Haji. Alive. Kai might have talked of him coming back one day to comfort her but she knew if he did, it would never be while she was awake. And for the first time in their years together, she actually wondered what it must be like waiting. Constantly waiting.
Her next words are muted, muffled against him.]
I don't know how to say it. Now that you're here, it's like a bad dream.
[She sighs out a long breath, relaxing against him. She didn't know what to explain first but she knew she had to start somewhere. And try not to cry.]
People here come from different places, different times. Even people you know. For me, I came here after going to the opera house. After Diva.
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Date: 2011-08-14 05:56 pm (UTC)Saya doesn't even fully recognize it now, though she can comprehend it better than she did before. Now that she had time to think of things other than Diva and Chiropterans.
She accepts the embrace not so she can cry against him but just so she can embrace him, her hold tight as she presses her forehead against his chest. It's still seeking comfort but instead of the comfort of mere presence, it's the comfort of it actually.
It really was Haji. Alive. Kai might have talked of him coming back one day to comfort her but she knew if he did, it would never be while she was awake. And for the first time in their years together, she actually wondered what it must be like waiting. Constantly waiting.
Her next words are muted, muffled against him.]
I don't know how to say it. Now that you're here, it's like a bad dream.
[She sighs out a long breath, relaxing against him. She didn't know what to explain first but she knew she had to start somewhere. And try not to cry.]
People here come from different places, different times. Even people you know. For me, I came here after going to the opera house. After Diva.